I'm getting my haircut today. I'm getting a cut AND highlights, because  all the natural highlights I have right now are getting a bit out of  control. [And if I keep pulling them ALL out, I'm going to be in trouble] I have  a dream...
I want to have hair like this:

I mean come on... The waves, the length, the color, the thickness... It  doesn't help that I find Ms. Evangeline Lilly absolutely DROP DEAD  GORGEOUS either. But that hair... Straight or wavy, LOVE IT.
I  can actually picture what I'd look like with this hair on my head, and  believe me, it's nice... In the category of hair, I have 
always longed for what I don't have. My hair is  bone straight, I want curls. My hair is a bit frizzy, I want smooth. I  truly wonder if we are ever happy with what we've been given, because I  know for a fact a couple of my 'curly-haired' friends, wish theirs were  straight (believe me girls, straight is nasty)
I have had hair  that I didn't complain 2 times in the past twenty years. Both times it  was a heck of a good run, something like 9 months each... Yep, you got  it, pregnant hair. It was gorgeous and thick, and looked healthy.

Here - 
preggy with Mason

Here - 
preggy with Madelyn. Oh my... look at that little boy, just a baby himself.
The only problem, once those kiddos were born, I started to shed the  hair. In ridiculous amounts. Like I've been to the doctor numerous times  over the past 7 years and been quite alarmed. I think I even alarmed my  dermatologist last fall when I pulled out
 a lot of hair during an  appointment. She gave me a prescription, of stuff to smear on my head  (it has to stay on, and it's greasy she said, so you'll have to do it on  the weekends) And I thought, "Awesome. No problem." I started to visualize my Evangeline hair, and  THEN she said...(as she handed me the prescription)  "This could cause  hair to grow in other places as well, you might notice an increase in  facial hair". And I thought, Whoa. Stop the boat... I don't want to have  beautiful thick Evangeline Lilly hair and man face... So needless to  say, I never filled the prescription.
Any way, today is the day, I come to terms with the fact, that I don't  and won't ever have Evangeline-like hair (no more babies for this cat). So  I'm going to work with what I have, and get a trim. I'd like it to look  nice on a regular basis you see. So here's my before picture...

A bit frizzy, not totally dry from a hair wash. Because you might think, there's a bit of a wave there, but if I go out in public and come back home, it's flat as a pancake... Look closely, you can see the 
fuzzy's at the top of my head...Also referred to as my 'natural' highlights. 
Sheesh... The girl should have put on some make up too!
Stay tuned for the after!